one week and counting

I have "only" one more week for my ultra sound. I'm getting more nervous than ever. I pray constantly that my babies are OK, I know everything is out of my control, so praying helps me feel better. I try to be rational and stay positive, yet I know that at this stage of the game, many things can go wrong. I'm just scared.
These past weeks have been very long in terms of waiting. This last week will be the slowest of them all. I do have morning sickness from time to time. I haven't actually thrown up (only once) but I feel nauseous and queasy, especially if I don't eat every 3 hours. I hope this are good symptoms that everything is going well.

my off the record OBGYN exam at 6 weeks

Today I went for my annual pap smear test. I went to see a new OBGYN because we moved last fall and I did't feel like driving 45 minutes to go see my old OBGYN. So I told the new doctor that I am 6 weeks pregnant but I was not released from my FS, so I couldn't get any "pregnancy related" tests done. She was a bit surprised that I had to wait for another 2 weeks to see what was going on, so she asked me if I was anxious to know. Of course I said: yes!!, so she did an ultra sound off the record, just to give me some peace of mind. She did advise me that it may be a little too soon to see anything, so I was kind of getting prepared. The doctor first did a pelvic ultra sound and we could see the two sacs with a little bean inside each! I was so happy! still scared/nervous, but so happy that I got to see the little ones. Then we waited to do a vaginal us. We saw the two babies with little tiny heartbeats! it was so cool! So she said that it's still early and I have to wait to see how everything progresses, but that seeing what we saw it's a good start. I don't have any official record of the us or anything but at least I got to see my babies. I'm so happy!! God bless my new doctor!! :-)

3rd and last beta and some more waiting to do...

You would think that I am used to it by now. The waiting game. First you wait to start IVF (in my case I had to wait 3 weeks for a cyst to go away), then you wait for follicles to grow, then you wait until they are mature enough, wait to find out your E2 levels, then you wait for the trigger, then for the retrieval, then you wait for eggs to fertilize, then wait to see if there are any to freeze, then you wait for 2 weeks for first beta, wait for second, wait for third, wait for ultra sound!! arghh!!! and that's without counting all the waiting we had to do since we started TTC (over 2 years)

I went for my 3rd and last beta today. The numbers came back great: 2,931. So now we have to wait (yes, wait some more) until September 4th for my first ultrasound.... it seems like an eternity!!! :-( other ladies have had theirs so much sooner than that. I would be about 8 weeks pregnant. I would just want to get reassured that everything is going fine in there.
I guess all I can do is take care of myself and keep praying.

Off I go now, to try to focus at work... I won't promise I won't drive myself crazy reading lots of literature about diet, baby growing, things that could go wrong.. etc. But really, can you blame me? I have to seriously find a way to distract myself... hmmm.... sigh

First Beta

Sorry for not updating!! Husband and I went to FL to look for homes during the weekend. We are thinking about moving in the fall, so we were very busy. We just got back today at 2:00 am, and very tired from the long trip. This morning I was half asleep driving to get my beta done.

So, the tests confirmed it: we are pregnant!!!! finally! :) the beta number was 454 and the nurse said that was a good number :) I have to stop taking the estrogen pills (which scares me....) but continue on progesterone gel. Next beta is on Wednesday. I hope the number gets better and better.... please little one(s), keep growing strong and healthy! please!!!