I can see a light at the end of the tunnel

Hello everyone!

I am sorry for not writing... I have been busy at work and honestly don't know where time went.

Today is Wednesday... wow, already?!... oh boy... anyway, where was I? Oh yes, my Saturday baseline.
So Saturday came along, and the baseline sonogram was the most uncomfortable one I've had so far. It also took longer than expected. At the end of it, my husband and I went for a nice breakfast and then drove off to Cape Cod. We've never been there and had a really good time, especially after I got the call from the nurse at 1:00 pm saying that everything looked good and that I could start my Gonal F shots that evening. Apparently my cyst is still there but it got smaller, so I got the green light to start my shots. I was so happy!. I definitely could enjoy the rest of the day much better.

Saturday night when we got back I prepared everything: alcohol swabs: check, cleaning and disinfecting all surfaces: check,  washing my hands: check, getting the Gonal F pen out: check, preparing the needle: check, priming the pen (first time use): check, adjusting the correct dosage: check, rubbing belly with alcohol swab: check.... and then, all I had to do was poke myself.... the time had come, here I was, holding the pen in one hand and my belly roll in other... and then... I couldn't do it!. My husband wanted to help anyway so he was more than happy to do the honors.It wasn't that bad, but I couldn't even look!! Sunday night I had to be brave and learn how to do it myself. Once the morning shots start, my husband won't be able to help and he would be at work. So Sunday we went through the same preparation process and when the time came, I did it. I didn't even thought about it, I just went for it. I think my desire to be a mom is much grater than my fear or needles : ) I was proud of myself : )

Today is my last evening of Gonal F before going to get blood work tomorrow. I don't know what they have to check for, but then they'll let me know what to do next. I think they'll tell me either to continue what I'm doing, increase the dosage, decrease the dosage or add the morning shot (Ganirelix). I am praying day and night for my body to do what it's supposed to do. Please God, give me a baby (s) soon! please!

I'll try to do a better job at posting. Thanks a lot for reading my journey!